Leaving was never an option

RT

2009-10-07T22:30:00.005+08:00

Lunch with jocelyn and deb, then over to cc watched them play bball till 7 plus. Bus back with deb, joc and *:)

JTKT

2009-10-03T00:00:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOCELYN TEO KAI TING WE L♥VE U

Today shuyi debby jocelyn and i headed to wisma for some shopping. Then we went over to Cineleisure for lunch at XinWang cafe. We took neoprints since we had to wait for Orathai + G and co to reach. They surprised Jocelyn with a cake ^^ We cut cake and sang birthday song outside long john silver. G and co left after that while we headed for 3 hours of kbox and buffet:)

Hope you had an unforgettable 14th birthday jocy, though ours wasn't the best planned uh. Thanks for being there throughout these 42 days to be exact and especially during this past one week. You can give me a call anytime, like how I did when I was down. Love you very much, last long with G :) !

And hi deb thong ling ling ling ling ling , throughout this 7 months I've seen your true colours, you are indeed a lesbian like me hahahahahahaha i knew it! Dont be afraid, I will follow you home everyday and protect you from any men who come your way! I love talking to you on the phone because i know you send me kisses through the phone every single time hahahahahaha (jk) i love you and last long with your yk too k :) !

Song yingting you need to cheer up , you still have your friends + me and deb. We will always be there for you~~

What we had has come and gone

2009-09-28T20:35:00.008+08:00

Well my week was pretty much the same. Cca on tuesday, study with Rianna, Nursyah, Fasihah, Nat and Sally on wed at usual place, lunch with Ziying before meeting up with Tiff , ch , dk and k on thurs. Studied with Shi hui on friday from 7-9.30pm. Accomplished much? Met up with J J J J J J yesterday and we headed to ion and fareast to get her stuff , then din tai fung for lunch! Took bus back to Drive thru mac and we studied for about 2 hours ;) j j j j j thanks for the h2h talk love u so much! Today I studied with R, N, F, N, and S again and thanks for the calls j and yt!!

Still need each other when we stumble and fall

2009-09-20T23:31:00.005+08:00

Today i met up with the same girls again and we took a cab to Flea titan 3. It was rather disappointing as we were all expecting much more but we managed to get something we liked. Saw familiar faces like jaslyn&co and afew of the same people who came to support for FFFF yesterday. Took cab over to Cineleisure for dinner at pasta mania and slacked at 9th storey for awhile before heading back to hub. Walked around with tiff while zy and pat left.

Close at hearts

2009-09-19T23:52:00.005+08:00

We had a booth at flea fly flo fun today. It was fun though tiring. And we finally managed to catch up. I love you girls ~~

from our hearts and mind

2009-09-18T21:19:00.005+08:00

Tq shi hui, naomi, debby, rianna, sally, trina, jj for being there these 2 days. Sorry j and d for not calling/replying messages yesterday afternoon when i could not meet you after school. Bought bbt and cup noodle with shi hui, rianna, sally instead and we headed over to study corner to eat . I left after eating while they studied. Today had normal lessons and after school, followed shi hui sally trina naomi and denise to gy bbt for lunch + slack at playground. Chiong back to school for oral and cca. Mac + J8 today for about an hour after that before heading home.

Peas in a pod

2009-09-14T20:09:00.005+08:00

Fri was spent at home until 5.30pm when I went over to hub to meet Yingting, jh, and c for 2 hours of L4D!!!!

Making me stronger

2009-09-10T22:43:00.007+08:00

Love yingting, debby, jocelyn~~

Love drunk

2009-09-09T23:24:00.003+08:00

Yesterday Jocy Debby Shuyi Tiff and I headed to Marina Barrage for picnic! It was kinda warm in the beginning but later part of the day it was pretty windy. We took many many pictures and its all in debby's facebook so here are just some of it. Around 6.30 we had the best food at Makansutra which is just by the river. Took 133 which was a long ride back to hub. Love you all~~~

We'll pull through

2009-09-07T22:27:00.005+08:00

Caught G force with Shi hui today :)

I'll never fall with you by my side

2009-09-05T23:15:00.013+08:00

(I LOVE U 2 TIFFFFFFFFFFFFF)

Today Tiff and I with 3 of her other friends headed to Bugis after lunch at Sumo. Then we headed of to Far East and Wisma while they went back to hub. Took a train back to hub to meet Ch and co. for lan at 7.45 and Tiff and I made friends with a 12 year old boy from amk pri he is so damn bloody cute. He is more pro than Tiff in all the games HAHAHA.

If this isn't love

2009-09-04T22:54:00.009+08:00

I've been spending most of my days outside loitering at town area these past few weeks. Monday was spent at FEP and Vivo with Shi hui , Lan and Bball with Ch and co plus Shi hui on Tues , FEP and Hub with Naomi on Wed and Pizza Hut with Joc Deb Zhiying yesterday. Today I met up with Ziying and we finally caught Where got ghost at 10.35 in the morning. We had our usual wanton mee , us walking aimlessly around FEP , Wisma for F21 and Topshop , Ion for the usual Yummy Yogurt + taking photos. We took train all the way to Marina Bay and then back to Bishan/Yck.

Sunshine after the rain

2009-09-03T11:16:00.004+08:00

I dont want to lose everything I have now. I've learnt to take everything seriously and cherish everything I have because regrets are all to late. Sorry for last night I did not mean to make you feel so lousy that you pushed all the blame to yourself. I'm touched by all the messages you send me each day including all the advices you give. Especially when I know there'd definitely be a message sent by you every morning before I am awake and that we will continue to message each other till the second we fall asleep. I thought it would all end when you said wanted to let everything go. You said you did not want to hurt me even more but did you know if you really made that choice it would only bring the both of us misery? Though I think I'm just probably another girl entering and will soon leave your life I still will treasure every single moment we have. You dont have to tell me I mean alot to you because deep down inside you yourself know the truth. You are the best thats all that matters dont ever forget that. X

I see the best of me inside your eyes

2009-08-31T23:52:00.004+08:00

WHY DO YOU ALWAYS MIX WITH A. SIGH

Time heals everything

2009-08-23T22:16:00.007+08:00

Met Debby under her void deck at around 2pm and then put my stuff at her place and we headed off for Katong Village Flea to support dearest shuyi ^ ^

Tell me why jocelyn teo kai ting 's face is so cute tell me why why why

Then me and deb went to Penin to get her new school bag and Far East for a little shopping before meeting Shuyi , Joc , and Jos for steam boat at amk!! (Y)

Shuyi only had nuggets and rice can you believe it just tell me you cant thnx

OK NOW THIS IS ME IN DEB PJ'S HAHAHAHAHAHHA CAUSE I WENT OVER HER HOUSE 2 TON.
We watched P/S I love you , Final Destination and scary movies. We found out so many people's blog which i've been looking all these while. I was so excited to know that i read through all their old posts and I couldnt sleep. Then Deb and I laugh at some of their blog posts cause they were too funny. She watched her animae while I sleep then i woke up then we both went to sleep at 5.32AM AND * SAID HE DONT SLEEP SO EARLY IN THE END 1 PLUS PANGSEH ME UH!!

We only had less than 4 hours of sleep and we woke up at 9am because I had to prepare for the flea. Cab to Ziying's house at 11am then we went to pick Tiff and then Pat.

Sales were rather good though in the beginning only I earn la ^ ^ thnx i'm pro - est. Not you * I AM PRO - EST U STUPID PIG. I AND * MESSAGE WHOLE DAY HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH ZY TIFF AND DEB ARE HAPPY 4 ME INCLUDING THAT STUPID SS WHO THINKS WE WILL BECOME BHB COUPLE WTH K BYE

Don't wanna hurt anymore

2009-08-21T23:52:00.002+08:00

Class bbq from 7 - 9.30pm , or you could consider it a farewell party for Yuhao who is leaving for England to further his studies. Most of us turned up except 4 girls and afew other boys. I could say its one of the best and successful than our previous ones. Haha almost all the girls got wet in the end because the guys dragged us in when some of us were about to leave thanks uh rianna mastermind. Cabbed home with Nursyah as her slipper broke , cute anot you tell me heehe. Sigh we never learn to treasure the friends around us until one has to leave just like Vania in the past. I say today is the day I felt my class was the best , I could ask for nothing more than the best classmates I have now I dont want this year to end really.

Oh and do support Shuyi's booth tomorrow!!

And Zy , Tiff , Pat and my booth on Sunday!!

All you do is let me down

2009-08-20T22:59:00.005+08:00

Happy advanced 14th birthday Nursyah! ^ ^

My week has gone rather smoothly so far and I think part of it is due to the fact that I was more than satisfied with the 3 papers I got back except chi . Headed to Far East, Ion, Wisma, Orchard Central and long bus ride at 11am right after paper with Shi hui on Monday . Tuesday was cca and afterwhich slack at void deck with Naomi .

And that was my yesterday.

Today Sally and I ran like crazy from j8 to bball cout to bus stop and back to school. Then around 3 plus slacked at food court with naomi followed by bball under void deck with a few other classmates. Home around 6.

ANYWAY I NEED TO GO ON A DIET , NO MORE 4 MEALS A DAY AND NO MORE HAVING SNACKS IN BETWEEN MEALS RACH !

Happy 14th

2009-08-18T00:00:00.004+08:00

Happy 14th Birthday Yingting!

I know you will be very touched when you see this uh.

Its short and simple but its the thoughts that count ^ ^

I LOVE U thanks for never failing to solve practically almost all my problems i face.

My fight is your fight

2009-08-15T23:59:00.005+08:00

First Zy , Deb and I prepared for an hour and in that one hour we did

Big card with big envelop

We sneaked into Yingting's condo because there were this 2 ang moh couples who entered
and . .
we blew balllons at the staircase side

Took out the cake

And lit the candles

Then we knocked on her door and she was very very shocked.
Birthday girl makes her wish

cuts her cake . .

THIS WAS HER BIG BIG CARD FROM US

PLUS THE BEAR HAHAHHA

Then we had delicious chocolate cake from sweet secret

SUP MOPPY

GOSSIP ABOUT YOU HUH HAHA

1 hour long bus ride to Vivo city after that

Shopping for awhile $$$ flew again then dinner at kfc

THANK U THANK U I MADE U ALL LAUGH LIKE CRAZY AND EVERYONE STARED DURING DINNER WOOTS

WALAU This photo Debby just jumped in lo so extra :p

Cabbed to hub then debby and tiff left around 9 ,
while me and yingting when to lan for L4D. HAHA I TELL U AT FIRST WE BOTH ONLY GIRLS SIA THEN ALL FILLED WITH GUYS AND WE SAW G AND HIS GANG THEN WE TRIED TO GAIN HIS ATTENTION BY SHOUTING DEB'S NAME HEEEE.
K SHALL END IT WITHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ME AND BIRTHDAY GIRL TO BE PHOTO ~

HOPE U ENJOYED OUR SURPRISE 4 U TODAY YINGTING. WE LOVE U.

Your world is my world

2009-08-14T21:40:00.005+08:00

My week was spent mugging for common tests. Finally I had the whole afternoon to shop with Zy today. We walked many rounds at Far East , followed by Wisma and Din Tai Fung , Orchard Ion , back to Far East , Hong Kong Cafe , Orchard Ion and Yummy Yogurt, and Wisma again. We were like broke kids after spending more $$$ on clothes at the end of the day. I LIKE IT WHEN ZY AND I TEND TO DISTURB EACH OTHER ON MSN HAHAHA WITH INNOCENT DEBBY INSIDE READING OUR CONVO. LOVE U MOP HEAD INSPIRED LEE ZIYING AND DEB~~~~~~

I watched all of it fade away

2009-08-07T21:01:00.006+08:00

Last sunday's overdued pix.

It was only a one and a half day week for me this week ? I only went to school on thursday for english and chinese papers plus the math competition which all ended at 1.30pm and spent the rest of the afternoon with Shi hui , Nursyah and Naomi opposite gy court eating our take-away macs. Today school ended at 9.45am afterwhich Shi hui and I met Jiajia and Cherie for Sakae buffet and 3D Up. They went for billard while I went home to change , met shi hui again at 7pm and we headed to cityhall plus mac ice cream.
My xiIA0ZiYInggxxxxx was looking forward to her science centre trip today , how young at heart heee see you next week!

Used to be us against the world

2009-08-01T23:08:00.006+08:00

We were supposed to study but we went tempted so . . .
we went shopping till 6pm before we reached the esplanade library. We studied for an hour and a half before heading over to Makansutra for dinner. We caught NDP Preview by the river and chased taxis like typical singaporeans heheheee

Just get back up when loves comes and knocks you down

2009-07-29T22:23:00.004+08:00

Being able to know you is like a precious gem which I know I'd be able to keep for life. Can we rewind back time and start all over again

Good to know I'm crashing

2009-07-26T14:36:00.004+08:00

My saturday spent at Clarke quay Bugis street Haji lane Far East.

Thanks ziying , debby , tiff , yingting , shihui , shu yi, claire , joyce , rianna , n+f+nat , ss , jamie.

Happy Birthday

2009-07-19T20:18:00.007+08:00

Yesterday, I was supposed to stick to my diet plan but it failed.

I had......

1 piece of MacDonald pancake for breakfast, half a plate of chicken rice for lunch, frolick, 1 packet of fries, bubble tea, and western food for dinner!!!!!!!!!!!

MY FAVOURITEZZZZZZZZZ

Ok and Happy Birthday Mummy I love u

We climb so fast just to fall again

2009-07-15T21:39:00.005+08:00

Somehow this feels like a catching game

and to tell you the truth

I'm really very very tired

I'm always the one doing the catching

while you're the one doing the running

You run too fast

I can't catch up

And I think I'm giving up

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did

2009-07-12T16:29:00.006+08:00

Wednesday was my most embarassing moment in my whole and I was not stalking R I swear. What would you do if the guy you like gang all knew you liked that guy and they were shouting his name out loudly to the whole public :( Thursday was mac with Shi hui and friday I met up with Tiffany and co again with Shuyi. We had Mos burger and we walked around J8. R and gang were playing bball at Bishan CC so we headed over. It took me more than 10 rounds before I finally got the courage to stand outside the court and watched him play. We were slacking outside the CC for 45 mins? Then R and some others joined us outside mac at around 6.30pm. R SMILED AND SAID HI TO ME AND MY HEART THUMPED LIKE CRAZY. We talked abit, Tiff and shu yi go disiao me. Good hor! We all went back to change before meeting again at Hub around 8 plus. Headed to Tiff's house to change and we met the others to catch Transformers! Mac for late dinner at 11 plus, R and I took the same train back. AND YOU KNOW SOMETHING? HE RAN UP THE ESCALATOR WITHOUT WAITING FOR ME BUT... WHEN HE REACHED THE TOP HE LOOKED DOWN HEHEHEHE. I reached home almost midnight and my parents kp over that small matter! I think I've got the worse parents ever who controls my everything, invading even my own personal privacy. They are so unreasonable I never hated home this much. Its like a prison cell, and I hate it. I should have ton over at Tiff's house that night :( THEY EVEN CONFISCATED MY PHONE FOR THAT WTF !!!!!!! OKAY BYE BYE. MISS YOU ZY, YT AND DEB!

You got a smile that could light up this whole town

2009-07-06T22:13:00.005+08:00

Hi finally back ! Or should I say I'm deciding if I should continue to blog? I dread it when school has to resume but I could say the first week went on quite well. I spent practically all my weekdays after school either at Mac/LJS. I had lunch with Tiffany and co on wednesday and we slacked for quite a while. Friday my heart couldn't stop beating because I SAW R AND HE SAW ME!! I watched Drag me to hell with Vanessa that evening and we were covering our ears because of the loud sound effect. Today is youth day and I my morning was wasted because our group did nothing when I could have slept till 12? I met Tiff and co again plus R!! Although our whole afternoon was spent and Lan and arcade I am more than satisfied. THIS HAS BEEN THE DAY I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR ALL ALONG ............. AND R SAID I COULD CHAT WITH HIM ON MSN. I AM VERY HAPPY.

Its you that I want

2009-06-27T23:50:00.005+08:00

On friday............. I met up with my group for project and we trained to Orchard to film our advertisement. It was funny hahahaha. Then............. I met Vanessa at Far East Plaza and we did a little shopping and had lunch. WANTON MEEEEEEEEEEE HEHE ZY'S FAV. She bought her shoes and we took a taxi to Peninsular. She bought her school bag. Then we took a taxi all the way back to AMK HUB WHICH TOOK 40 MINS BECAUSE THERE WAS A STUPID JAM AND WE SUSPECT THE DRIVER PURPOSELY DROVE THAT WAY. Then we went to Novena to look for my bag but it was out of stock so we decided to head to J8 for Swenson's fonduuuuuu. Afterwhichm we headed back to Far East to look for my school bag but still couldnt find any nice ones. Cabbed to Chompchomp for cheap dinner and then we took the wrong bus back so we alighted and took a taxi back to J8 AND DID FUNNY STUFF. I SPENT $50 ON FOOD AND TAXI TODAY AND BOUGHT NOTHING AT ALLLL. But I tasted great food hehe Stingray, chicken wings, satay, fondu, sugarcane now my favourite.

You can't hear the pain I feel

2009-06-25T01:02:00.003+08:00

Met up with tiff and zy today. We went to Din Tai Fung for lunch. Decided to head to Bugis for some shopping. I got my sandals at Topshop, zy got her dress and tiff got her leggings at Bugis street. Walked over to Haji Lane for more shopping then we took a cab down to Far East for Wanton Mee. They have the best Wanton Mee there agreed, zy? Afterwhich Tiff went to remove her extensions and we cabbed to Singapore Flyer. Haha many funny things took place inside that 37 minutes passed very quickly. Shared cab $$ and tiff headed to wisma to meet tracey and co while zy and i headed home. FUN DAY ALL.

It felt so wrong, yet so right

2009-06-23T22:23:00.004+08:00

HI VANIA I MISSED YOU!!!!!

Today Shi hui and I finally met Vania after 6 months! Caught up alot at Pizza Hut not forgetting to mention the stares we had because we were the loudest. We ran around Junction 8 like mad kids, and we met Rianna and co. at arcade!!! Game session for quite awhile, then food court to catch up on more stuff. Surfed the net with them at the library and we went seperate ways at 6.30pm while Shi hui Rianna and I headed to Amk hub. Shi hui had Mos Burger while I had Sushi for dinner.

HI VANIA REMEMBER HOW WE WERE ONCE ENEMIES IN PRI SCH DUE TO CIRCUMSTANCES(LIKE HOW YOU CLAIMED HAHA). BUT NOW WE'RE SO CLOSE YOU EVEN CALLED ME ON SUNDAY WHEN YOU REACHED SG. I MISS YOU ALOT PLEASE DO COME BACK AND VISIT US AGAIN THIS DEC NOT NEXT YEAR OK!! I DONT CARE BEST FRIENDS 4 LIFE

Thought that we were stronger

2009-06-19T00:58:00.005+08:00

iI'm finally back. Last saturday(13 June) Picnic with Rianna, Jasmine and Joanne. Met Ziying on the bus and it was such a coincidence we were heading to the same place Botanic Gardens. They gave us some fries and nuggets while we gave them tarts. Cabbed to Flea fly flo fun massive, Rianna and I both got a top each. Had our frolicks and I had to leave.

(14-17June) Malaysia. Continuous run of movies, swimming at night, gazing at stars and night scenery.

Erasing the memories from our hearts and mind

2009-06-12T21:37:00.003+08:00

This sums up my tuesday, wednesday, thursday and friday. I FINISH WATCHING BOF HEHE WHY JIHOO AND MIN HO SO FUCKING HOT YOU TELL ME *drools Today I stayed home the whole afternoon and read thru my old diary. Brought back so many memories sighz :( Evening had Sushi buffet with Vanessa and we went to Far East Plaza again hahah I know third time this week. Took bus all the way back to Junction 8 and we had cake!! I feel so happy after eating those small cake!! I got good feeling after eating that I want to eat more

Met Vanessa again on tuesday, we had lunch at Swensons and then took Bus 54 all the way to Far East. Walked over to Wisma for Topshop, F21. $$ on clothes plus Din Tai Fung for dinner. Took the circle line, and had our favourite ice cream at Mac.

Escape theme park with pri school clique!! I got bad side effects from the viking after that :(

Swensons for lunch with Shi hui followed by Haji Lane. Cabbed to Far East Plaza and waste more $$ on clothes. Marina Square and caught Hannah Montana!! Xiao long bao and La mian for dinner hehe my favourite ^^

Let me hold you for the last time

2009-06-06T12:06:00.002+08:00

Met Vanessa again today, headed for lunch at Swensons then we decided to go for..... a long bus ride ^^ We took 53 all the way to the Changi airport, and wandered around T3. We did many things you wouldn't have expected. Ok la things you wouldn't have expected me to do. There was this drawing counter where all the little kids were drawing and I wrote I liked * on the paper and carried it around the whole T3 which led to many unwanted stares HAHAHA OK I LIKE. Then we went to Mac Donalds to have our ice cream and I got bad hair day today so I was in and out of the toilet for quite a while. Vanessa decided to be the good guy again by making me pose stupid acts when we settled down at some seats. I got like so many unglamz pixs flooding my camera now. I was hungry again even though we just ate ice cream so we went to eat at Lerk Thai!! Want to know a secret? I LIKE TO EAT ALOT WHEN IM DOWN HAHAHA. Ok and she was reprimanding me the whole way while we were walking to the bus stop for my previous act which caused me to be in the state I'm in now. Thanks I cried and laugh the whole way there which caused many more unwanted stares. We listened to songs and sleep in bus back to J8. We had yogurt and slack at open space till around 8. Can I eat 5 meals tomorrow? Can someone now reprimand me for my stupid act even though 2 years has passed? How do you stop the tears when you know your chances are gone? :(

What if my chances are already gone

2009-06-05T22:31:00.008+08:00

Vanessa and I had lunch at Din tai fung and following, we did our nails at Amk hub. Then we did not know where to go until... she suggested kbox. So we took a train down to Sommerset and sang for 4 hours. We headed for Vivo at 6pm. Decided to take away our dinner and we went to the rooftop to eat. We walked around the whole of Junction 8 and left for home at 9.30pm I talked about * the whole day sorry I can't help but cry.

THIS IS GOING TO BE FUNNY SO DONT LAUGH

OKAY END

With you, nothing can daunt me

2009-06-04T22:49:00.004+08:00

I AM VERY HAPPY(thanks shi hui, zining, ziying and yingting for all the encouragement, keep it as a secret okay!) BUT I still want to forget everything. I still want time to pass faster so that I can see a happier you when you are with her than we were before. I want to sacrifice anything everything for you with nothing in exchange. Then after that, I want to go into a deep sleep until the world ends.

Weather the hurricane

2009-06-03T23:26:00.014+08:00

I took the circle line, then the train from Bishan to Marina and back to Bishan alone. I like long train rides. I went to ______ , stood at the opposite for an hour and cried. (DONT LAUGH OK)Had tuition at 6.30pm afterwhich Shi hui and I had dinner at Din tai fung!! We ordered alot of dishes and the bill was very nice. After dinner, we lepak at the open space with our yogurt and took pictures. Headed home at 10pm.

Remember the time you came to school early just to pass me the mentos? Remember the time we used to slack with the others almost every school day? Remember S would accompany me to catch a glimpse of you during recess? Remember S would accompany me to sneak over to your class because I wanted to catch a glimpse of you and you acted like you did not know but in actual fact you did? Remember I would always call you to wake you up at 10am during the holidays? Remember you would always irritate me but it always made my day? Remember the time I went to your house to apologise as I was being unreasonable and I ended with an i love you and you said the same thing too? Remember the time I would go over to the badminton court and nag at you to come down and play? Remember the time you, S, D, and I would study in the library after school for the end of year exam? Remember the time you called your friends over when D wanted to kick S and I got a shocked? Remember how you, S and I would go to the playground just for the swings? Remember how you and I would text so much during the swim meet? And you said you wanted to buy me and ice cream? It rained so we did not get to eat it but it was the thoughts that counted. Remember how S and I would run down the stairs to see you when you were preparing to get run during sports day? Remember how you scolded * when he bullied me?(AND YOU TORE UP HIS EXCERCISE BOOK OK IN ANGER) Remember you apologised to me as you couldnt make it to my 11th birthday? Remember the present you gave me on my 11th birthday with your own handwritten message? Remember you requested for a wallet and although it cost $50 I still bought it because you liked it and that was all that mattered. Remember we would use the handwritten format to write each other's chinese name on msn? And you always said I wrote yours wrongly but I kept claiming I did not? Remember you and SH quarrelled and I made you apologise to her because I was on her side? I remember I was hesistating if I should invite you to my party in p3? SH and the others had to pass the invitation throughout the whole compo class on Saturday? Remember I was so eager to come to school just to be able to see you? But I remembered I hurt you twice and that cost me to lose everything I used to have. Remember I would cry to S everyday and I hated to come to school since because I did not know how to face you? Remember the time S and I went over to your best friend's house and you came later which made S and I lock ourselves in the room because I did not know how to face you? Remember how I acted as if I was better off happy that way?Remember when you got injured your best friend came to tell me to look for you at the General office but I did not dare so I just stood outside? Remember when the ambulance took you away I could only cry? Remember I texted you so many times but you only replied one? You told me not to care anymore. And you did not care either from that day. No matter how many times you saw me cried in school you would just walk away? And there was once I skipped lessons and cried at the 4th storey, you knew about it but you chose to remain ignorant? I remembered I ran and cried in the toilet during graduation with S running after me. I couldn't accept the fact that we were going to be in different secondary schools after that. Remember I saw you at Macs last year but I could only walk away slowly? Remember I saw you in Bus 54 last year but I could do nothing? Remember I saw you at the ceremony last year but I could only act as if I saw nothing? Remember how we locked eyes just two weeks back but I had to act like I did not know you? I realised that I am willing to sacrifice anything everything for you just like before. If you're happy I am too.

ONE AND ONLY MODEL :>

I'm left with half-filled memories

2009-06-02T22:42:00.004+08:00

Met up with Zining after so many months. We had lunch at pizza hut(Marina Square) followed by Candy Empire at Vivo and Sentosa. Oh and we bought our swim wear ^^ We went on the luge and skyride twice each, Zining freaking out on the skyride, banging me on the luge thus my helmet dropped off!! ( I HAD TO PUT IT ON WHILE RIDING OKAY), playing water, suntaning, laughing, envying couples on the beach, bathing, vivo for ice cream, home, and tuition. I had a nice day but I am sad. Tomorrow is emo day :(

SHE WORRYING THAT HER SLIPPERS MIGHT DROP SO YES

DONT LOOK AT MY FATS

FUCKING HILARIOUS

2009-06-01T15:06:00.011+08:00

Okay I deleted my long dream because I scared he scarly come then he see get offended I'm dead. (I VERY SCARED ONE LA K)So if you want to know come online ask me kay :>

Distance don't matter

2009-05-30T21:07:00.005+08:00

TODAY...
SPELLS PICTURE SPAM
I met up with Ziying and we went to Simei to collect our satin bomber jacket. Afterwhich she wore it straight HAHAHA.
THEN......

WE HAD XIAO LONG BAOZ AND LA MIAN. Ziying taught me a new way of eating xlb with ginger and vinegar. Yumz.

We walked around Tampines 1 = Topshop = Dorothy Perkins = Diva = St Louis. Decided to head to Bugis street and then Haji lane! We were sweating like mad dogs but I sweat the most :( We took many photos and polariod films! We went into many shops mainy because of aircon! Hahaha. Then we went to this unknown mall and we couldn't find the toilet although we followed the signs!! We laughed because we were so embarassed but finally we found it! Ziying lar never see the next sign properly HAHAHA JK! We took a train down to town and we headed to Far East. She was as usual very fickle minded over a high waisted shorts. In the end she did not buy anything like the ring at Diva today!! We slacked at the chairs taking weird funny pictures and Ziying was pissed because my camera just wouldn't take photos taken by her HEHEHEHE. I went to collect my tote and it did not manage to tempt Ziying even though she liked it alot :( So we took a cab home and on our way we took like over 100 pictures from stupid weird crazy normal abnormal all sorts, you name it. We had heart to heart talks this afternoon I love you so much Ziying, really.

DONT ASK ME WHY I FAT

My favourite

Forever

We are twins with same side parting

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

2009-05-28T15:38:00.009+08:00

Yesterday I gave school a miss. I met Vincent Rooban and Chris and we headed to Cineleisure at 10am in the morning. We went watched Night at the Museum 2 = throwing popcorns = cold cinema = laugh and laugh = people staring at us. Spent another 3 hours playing pool and hanging out at the 9th storey. Plus arcade for about an hour. Today was fun and Sally and I played poka cards again throughout almost the whole day. I think I'm giving school a miss again tomorrow I dont like the subjects that we're having like yesterday. (edited 12.41am) To Ziying Sally Debby Zining Zhiying Yingting thanks for the advices. Every single thing that happens happen for a reason. In your eyes it might be wrong but when you know the reason it might change everything. I'll let karma take its course :) Why worry if your conscious clear?

Can you stay strong, can you go on

2009-05-26T18:51:00.005+08:00

On monday I spent my day with Sally playing poka cards with the guys and we won $3 :) Is that pro or what ahaha. And today I spent my day with Trina, Sally, Jt and Denise running and hiding from the discipline commitee. We managed to escape safely hehe. We played Murderer, drum lessons, ran away from discipline commitee during recess, played poka cards, laugh so hard with sally, ran away from discipline commitee, computer time, laugh hardly with sally again, creating and hearing Sally's jokes, and home. Ziying's the best person to confide in, luv you ziying!

Holding back

2009-05-24T03:46:00.010+08:00

I am very happy today because..
1. I met Tiffany after a very long 3 weeks.
2. we wasted $$ on cab fee to go to a very very tiny flea at Orchard
3. went to bugis and we bought the same top
4. went to flea fly flo fun
5. went to eat 1 hr course of sushi
6. we took many many pictures

Hehe more than happie~

Do you remember

2009-05-22T22:08:00.004+08:00

Do you remember all the times we had together? Remember the returning of the nail stuff Tiffany did which made both Ziying and I laugh so badly? How fickle minded Ziying and I were when we were at F21 thinking of what studded bag to buy together? And hugging each other when Ziying did not have to meet her classmates that night? Remember the times we went to Botanic Garden with Ziying's squashed tarts and we had so much fun that day? Crystal Jade Xiao Long bao La mian and Sushi that night? Remember we shared cab money home and took so many unglam pictures? I'll never forget how I'll confide in you 3 plus Yingting whenever I have problems in school till today. Although we are in different schools we'll still be the best of friends. Sorry I'm bad at words :(

Confused

2009-05-21T16:20:00.004+08:00

Do you get sick of people so fast like what she told me?

I think you do and I regret telling you so much. So much that I'm worried you might spread them.

Helpless

2009-05-20T21:05:00.005+08:00

Today I woke up at 9am(when I'm suppose to meet Dillion at 9am) to train for badminton interclass with Dillion at Block 125 there. Went to Swensons for 1-1 lunch special it was so worthwhile. Headed home and I finally had a long afternoon nap from 1-4.30pm since 12332985829475 years. Prepared and everything then headed for tuition at amk hub. Ziying said she saw me but never say hi lar!! Miss you girls.

Happy day

2009-05-19T22:43:00.007+08:00

My exams ended today. I met Rianna, Joanne and Jasmine at 11am. We went to Ikea for lunch and window shopping. We explored Tampines 1 for Diva Topshop Frolicks and Uniqlo. Took a train down to Orchard for Macarons another round Topshop and shopping followed by wondering around. Sent Joanne back to Bishan then we headed to Amk hub at night to catch The Uninvited. Home after that. Hehe happie day indeed~ More photos tmr bye

R

2009-05-15T17:47:00.005+08:00

I know the memories here scare you and because you've gone through so much that you want to get away. But I don't want you to. I know you feel left out when you're with them, I know you think that the whole world does not want you and that you're all alone but I hope you know I'll be there for you. I don't want you to feel like I'm treating you as a replacement because of her but I want you to know I really care and love you. These 2 weeks have been my most enjoyable days with you and I am not going to hide the fact. Even if we aren't the best of friends and even if we bicker now and then, you've did more than what a best friend would do. I always thought that friends are easy to come easy to go and even if I complain about not having true friends I always thought that I would never be alone. Just today I realised how much it hurts when you told me you were going to leave. I learnt to cherish the people around me from that second you told me that news. You won't know how much it hurts because you can only think of how your childhood would be so much better when you leave. You can only think of getting to know more people and having better friends than what you have now. You can only think of enjoying everyday when you step into that school. Yet I can only think of how things will be so much better if you could stay. But the test is tomorrow. What if you pass? You would have to leave. So what if you would only know the results in sept? Time passes so fast nowadays and in a blink of an eye it would have already been september. Just a week ago I still thought of how nice if we could be in the same class next year but now... I'm crying behind this screen unbelievable huh? I'm crying so hard you would be so surprised. No matter what I say or do you've already made up your mind and I have nothing to say. I wish you the best when you're over there and I hope you will find many new best friends who will never make you feel like you're an extra. I'm sorry I couldn't be a better friend.

Xoxo,
Rachel

Staying strong,

2009-05-14T18:54:00.015+08:00

Today had lunch with Rianna and she came over to my place to study. It was quite productive I can say? 5 more papers to go... Gotta start studying again.

Wish I had a chance to say I'm sorry

2009-05-08T21:00:00.015+08:00

Shi hui and I went for lunch at Thai Express at Raffles City, followed by Marina Square for some shopping and then Yoguru at Raffles City and then Cineleisure to catch Ramen Girl as we had 2 free tickets. I'm tired bye

Hold me till the pain subsides,

2009-05-03T19:23:00.004+08:00

Yesterday I had tuition with Joyce and then bought Frolicks yogurt at Serangoon Gardens. We found a place and studied from 12-2pm. Then at 5.30pm I went to meet my group members for LARVA project. We took a train down to Orchard to film our project and then we spent 40 mins trying to find where to eat because the guys are so fussy I could have died of gastritis. So after we finally ate Shi hui followed me for a round of Topshop, F21 and Cotton On. The boys and us went seperate ways as we wanted to eat yogurt!! But Shi hui said Yoguru's yogurt tastes bad!! Its nice I tell you but to her... We went for another round of Topshop and I spent $80+ and that caused me to be broke for at least 2 months :( Well but Shi hui has volunteered to help me clear waredrobe and sell away my clothes. 2 rounds of yogurt yesterday AND IM VERY HAPPY. Today I went back to Frolicks and IM A HAPPY GIRL WOO.

Why do people want to cause trouble for nothing in others life? Nothing better to do?

Girlies

2009-05-01T21:58:00.020+08:00

Today is a failed study date. I went to meet Rianna at Junction 8's coffee bean first and we got chased because no studying is allowed so we went to the outside tables of coffee bean to study and Debby came and then we studied and then we got chased out again. So we decided to head to MacDonald's to study. After 40 minutes we got chased because there were an exploding population of people so after meeting Yingting, her stead, Kerrine and Zhiying, we headed to Food Court to study. We occupied 4 tables because of kiasu me hehehehe(like what Yingting claims). We practically shop around and took pictures like crazy people and I did not even touch a single page except staring at one page of my science textbook but nothing goes into my brain. After waiting for Rianna to discuss with her group members for her fund raising project we headed to amk.(Debby went home first HAAHAH DEB ANOTHER INSIDE JOKE) Debby, Huimin, Zhiying, Rianna and I went to Nebo while the rest headed to watch movie. After that Neo prints but Zhiying had to leave. Rianna left after that so Debby and I headed to Macs. Yingting called so we took Neos with them again before they left. Debby and I walked around Hub and I had the most disgusting yogurt in my life hahahaha. Shared Strawberry ice with Deb while I Rianna met us again and she ate finished my disgusting yogurt. Accompanied Deb for her bus then parents came to fetch me.

Hiatus

2009-04-30T22:23:00.009+08:00

Today was released early from school. I had lunch with Rianna at Cafe Cartel and then we decided to go to Bishan library to study instead of Starbucks at Toa Payoh. We studied for 4 hours and 20 minutes exactly. I can't wait for tomorrow. I think I'll be on hiatus till the MYs are over unless there is more exciting stuff to post about my day. Don't get tired reading my going to die soon blog omg k bye.

I don't understand why you're acting this way. BUT I THINK I KNOW BECAUSE YOU'RE JEALOUS HAHAHA WHAT A JOKE

RACH GO TUITION ALR !

2009-04-29T18:06:00.005+08:00

RACHEL NOW PROBABLY GO TUITION ALR. THUS IM HERE (you wont know who am i ) TO BLOG HERE . ON BEHALF OF HER , I WANT TO SAY SHE VERY EXCITED ON 23RD OF MAY AND MYE TO FINISH FAST *VOOOMVOOM. SHE WENT TO TUITION , SURE MISSING ME AWWWWWW. HAHAHAAH ! SHE COME BACK WILL READ ALR. HAHA BYEBYE *WINKS *

Do you still think of me like you used too?

2009-04-28T23:05:00.008+08:00

Study date with Rianna and Debby at Nebo Cafe Amk hub. 3 hours of studying + lunch + dessert was the best. I think my stayup till 1.40am plan this morning was a success hehehe I shall stay up till 12 plus tonight too.

Miserable at best,

2009-04-27T22:31:00.007+08:00

So today's study plan failed without doubt. Because there were 7 of us together there was hard time controlling the laughters esp when Tiffany debby and I laughed. Yogurt with deb \m/, bubble tea for other girls and the taking of instax pictures sums up what took place.

The pain sank in,

2009-04-25T18:54:00.009+08:00

Hi today waited for this love of mine for an hour. We were suppose to meet at 10.30am but we changed to 11am and she finally arrived at 12pm. I almost fell asleep at home until she messaged me. We went to popular because we had to fill in our warranty cards but had no pens. Sent our warranty cards for the instax then we headed to buy our instax films. Cotton on then we started taking pictures with our instax and it felt as if the world was staring at us. After that, we went around looking for cakes below $15 because it was Ziying's friend's birthday. Bought the chocolate truffle cake and yes we headed to the train. Ziying left for bugis while I went to Novena. There's a food fair there and it was tempting me! Town for lunch with family and a little shopping. I saw the white canvas loafers w/o lace at Topshop for $39 and another black flatz for $79 but I've spent too much this month. Many nice clothings there and temptation got the better of me. $80 on 2 oversized tee. There goes my money. There were nice tops at F21 too but I've got to start saving for :

1. Dye hair with Ziying love after school ends

2. Flea on 23rd of May with girls

3. Kbox on 23rd of May with girls

4. Sentosa with girls

5. ECP with girls

6. Topshop and F21 shopping with Ziying love

7. Online shopping with Ziying love (L)

8. More food feast!

9. White canvas loafers w/o lace \m/

10. Day out with Genevieve and Zining

11. Claire, Suzanne, Elaine's day :)

K i've got to go over Elaine's house for dinner be back to post later and start my online study date with Ziying if she comes back on time.

When disappointment sinks in,

2009-04-23T16:02:00.010+08:00

Short and sweet: I will not be blinded by your hypocrisy ever again

Make my heart skip a beat,

2009-04-21T19:02:00.004+08:00

I think I like both. Ziying and I both love that bag. I was like telling her on msn " I like the black bag you know " She replied " Hi 5 that bag fucking chio right " Hehe I'm going to get both. Ziying is going to share with me her very chio flats and I am going to share with her that bag. Don't you think its good to have such best friend?:)

Don't keep me waiting no more,

2009-04-19T15:09:00.031+08:00

Met the girls at Amk Hub in the afternoon. Went to Tiffany's mom place as she was suppose to get money. Walked back to the bus stop outside Hub and we took a bus to FEP. Bought Tiff's tube and then we took another bus to Botanic Garden. Picnic there for 3 hours plus with many funny things which happened. The tarts which Ziying bought was all ruined because the box somehow flipped and tossed on the way there. We took many many pictures and there was this China lady whom was really nice to help us take pictures on both the instax and dslr. And we were laughing like crazy there I tell you. Guess what we had for dinner? XIAO LONG BAO AND LA MIAN at Ngee Ann City, both Ziying and I were craving for that. Debby left at 8 plus? So we accompanied her to Mrt while we walked to Cineleisure for a round of Sushi! I know we eat alot Hahaha. We complained that the banana cake or something was bad. Tiffany said the banana tasted sour, as if it was rotten! Then the waitress laughed with us. She complained to her manager and then she told us the manager said it was meant to be that way! 10 plus we cabbed home and many funny things happened while we were in the taxi too.

- Squashed tarts

- I know you love your tarts Ziying

- I love your tarts too

- Squashed tarts filled with Ziying's love

- Yum, want some?

- We love your squashed tarts Ziying

- Finished eating your tarts alr ah!

-Tiff, why jump so high!?

- Fav group pic

- Deb and tiffany never jump?!

- Wow nice hat

- Hi Deb

- Do you see us?

- The lady whom help us took our group pics

- I know you love us too much alr tiff

- And you too Ziying

- Fav pic with tiffany

- You love me

- Cute

- Even more cute?:)

- Deb says i love Kitkat!!

- A Kitkat for me?

- Fav group pic

- Fav pic with Ziying

Held on tightly,

2009-04-14T18:48:00.011+08:00

Yesterday was spent with the girls. Met Debby and Zhiying and Amk hub 11am. We were suppose to slack at the cafe next to cinema but it was not open yet. We decided to have lunch at Pizza Hut instead then we went to the opposite playground to kill time before Tiffany met us. We rescued a cat instead and blew bubbles at the playground. Cabbed to Thomson Plaza while waiting for Tiffany to finish her Swensons' lunch with her cca group. All of us together with Tracey crashed at Yingting's place. Blog hopping, searching for hot guys \m/, pix, heart2heart talks were the best. 6pm we went to the coffee shop because we were supposed to have dinner but we were not hungry. We passed by Ziying's block! Okay anyway, headed to playground for heart2heart talk after Yingting bought her vodka. Cabbed home and something farni happened on the way. MY NETS CARD WAS NOT APPROVED BECAUSE OF I DONT KNOW WHAT REASON AND I HAD TO GO TO THE MARKET'S ATM TO WITHDRAW MONEY AND PASS IT TO THE CAB UNCLE! It was so embarassing. Conference with the girls at night.
PS: I MISS TIFFANY NG LIKE CRAZY AND OF COURSE THE OTHER GIRLS INCLUDING LEE ZIYING :)

Holding on,

2009-04-11T23:40:00.018+08:00

Day out with favourite girls. It was suppose to be the seven of us, but Genevieve and Zining can't so left 5, then Deb and Yingting last minute couldn't make it this morning so left me Ziying and Tiffany. It was a still a very fun day indeed. Actually we were suppose to meet at 12.30pm Amk Hub but did you know Ziying only arrived at 1.15pm while Tiffany arrived at 1.30pm!
Trained to Dhoby Ghaut for flea>Cabbed to 7 Mount Sophia Road because the shuttle bus queue was too long>Flea was great but hot and stuffy>Cabbed to Peninsular Plaza to buy Ziying and my Instax 200>Started raining cats and dogs and we had no umbrella>Borrowed from the store lady and she said we did not have to return! Good right, but we told her next sat we'd return it>3 of us shared umbrella but we still got wet>Bused to Vivo City>Forever 21, Topshop, River Island! Ziying and I bought the same studded bag but I had to help her pay first! *Grins $116 total*>Bought some nail stuff but in the end Tiffany asked the Angmoh guy for refund you know! Ziying and I were laughing by the side till be fell onto the ground HAHAHA. End up we got 2 nail thing but not the $40 set HAHA>Threw away the auntie's umbrella too!>Long John Silver for Dinner>Rooftop to take pixs>We were about to leave at 8 plus because Ziying had to meet her classmates but in the end miracle she don't have to go(!!)>Happy and high as we headed to Daiso because Tiffany wanted to get some pens>Cabbed to Far East>Shopped like crazy>Trained home

Light of my world,

2009-04-10T21:07:00.005+08:00

-You are the light of my world but ever since you left the place was filled with darkness.

I was supposed to go out to meet Debby, Yingting, and Yingting's 2 friends but in the end everyone could not except Yingting. That's why she is in a bad mood this morning. HAHAHA. End up heading to Novena with parents and then viewing showflats of new condos. I was messaging Ziying the whole time I was there telling her that I will be going to her house to see see look look in the days to come. Then we will be going to Yingting's house and Debby's house then mine! Take turns okay luvs. I can't wait for tomorrow its only hours away. So close. Picture post tomorrow.

Till the end of time,

2009-04-09T22:02:00.008+08:00

Study date with Debby, Yingting and Zhiying today. While we were walking around at Amk Hub we saw Ziying and Deb was like "ZIYING!!" Haha! I bet Ziying was shocked but happy! This sat will be great with all my fav girls together minus Genevieve and Zining. I wished both of them could make it.

So much more,

2009-04-05T21:00:00.006+08:00

DEBBY TLL:

You know something? I love you more than the whole universe more than anything. Although you could not meet me up last minute today because of your daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaddy i still (L) you. And because of your touching get well texts I (L) you even more. Haha this is lame and I'm bad at words but you know what I mean. Thursday thursday thursday whoo~

Mistake from the start,

2009-04-04T23:22:00.007+08:00

Friendship, what's the definition of it? Different dictionaries have different meaning and different people analyses friendship in different ways. But afterall does friendship mean backstabbing your friends behind their back? You might not even realise what you actually said about me to other people but I know about it already. You have made me lose trust and faith in you and no matter what you do, you will never be able to gain back my trust in you. Our friendship will not be the same anymore do you know? I still treasure this friendship and it hurts when I have to let go do you know? Yet there will still be true friends whom I can trust and tell everything to. They never fail to be there for me and distance will never be able to tear us apart. Claire, Elaine, Ziying, Suzanne, Tiffany, Joyce, Yingting, Debby, Genevieve, Zining, Sylvia, Trina, Chinyee, Cheryl, Vanessa, Tiffany Ng

Don't bother to wait,

2009-04-03T23:06:00.003+08:00

I think I caught a flu. I've been sneezing all day today and I think it was because of all the practices in the auditorium. Sweat then cool down sweat then cool down. I want to get well soon so that I can go for study date with debby b3st fr3nx this sunday.

It is starting to feel different,

2009-04-02T20:09:00.004+08:00

Everything I expected starts to take place. I am not surprised. But its alright because I still have my girls.

Happy Birthday,

2009-04-02T19:52:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Lim Zining! I love you more than the world more than anything. Although we are not able to meet up except during the holidays you know I am always there for you. A text from you and it always makes my day. You can't make it for the outing with the girls and the study dates but its alright because I know that you've tried. All our parents wants their children to do well in life and that is why they are restricting you to go out during the weekends. Don't worry one day we'll have an outing for all with you being able to be there okay. Please take good care of yourself and last long with Chinyong!

Unlike any other,

2009-03-30T22:02:00.004+08:00

Lunch with Shihui, Trina, Naomi and Vanessa and then headed to Amk hub to catch the show Confessions of a Shopaholic. That pretty much sums up my day. Woo.

Girls girls girls

2009-03-29T13:31:00.005+08:00

I'm bored Yingting has just pangseh me by going offline and I've just sent out an email to the girls. I miss them.

[edited]Anyway, Yingting has promised to go for our study date at the esplanade library on the 18th and Genevieve has promised to try her best. How about Ziying baby and how about Zining?! Both Zs try baby try~ We can never have an outing in which all the 6 of us can make it and I'm dying for that day girls.[/edited]

Different from the others,

2009-03-27T22:23:00.005+08:00

Out with darling today for lunch at Sakae Sushi. Sum it up, it was fantastic. I'm stuck at words these days. I dont know why.

Happy Birthday,

2009-03-26T16:48:00.005+08:00

Happy 14th Birthday Ziying! I'm glad you've enjoyed your day today receiving presents and birthday wishes from all your friends. You've been there for me all these while and although we don't see each other often on school days except weekends and school holidays I'm already very contented that I've got you to pour my sorrows to and share my laughter with. Its wonderful to have a talk with you and the other girls last night. When I was about to break down today, your text messages were the result of me holding back my tears and staying so strong. You make me feel that I'm not alone because I've got you. You give me so many advices and funny text messages that even a billion I love you's I say to you can't be enough to thank you. We always remind each other that we're 8 digits away so do give me a call if you just feel you need a listening ear. And do give me call if you want to meet because you need a lending shoulder. Don't forget, Bffl! I love you.

Friendship which lasts,

2009-03-25T20:47:00.003+08:00

Okay now I've completed my first step of making Lee Ziying her birthday present! And I'm going to complete them before 12am 26 March 09! And I'm going to say something so mushy to her when she receives a surprise from Yingting, Genevieve and I! Will update more tomorrow!

If I only had 1 last breath,

2009-03-24T19:14:00.010+08:00

To the girls: Ziying, Zining, Yingting, Genevieve

Hi girls you know y'all mean the world to me right? Hehehe I'm never good at words but today for the first time I'll pen them all down here. Thanks for all the laughters and joy you've added in my life. All the text messages we'll send to each other in class in school outside school practically anywhere we are. The "never failing to cheer each other up" jokes you all tell me when I'm down and all the little secrets we share will never be forgotten. Its weird but its true I actually confide in you girls more than those whom I practically see everyday in school. Did you know you are the reason for me rushing to come home everyday just to turn on the computer to tell you what has happened during the day? I have so much more to tell you when we meet up again and 11 April will be the day. I'm also looking forward to us studying at Bishan library Ziying and Yingting! Even though we can't meet up as much due to school days but the place you all mean in my heart is irreplacable. You know it. If you're down please don't keep it within yourself because you always have me. I'll be there for all of you 24/7. Remember, I'm just 8 digits away.

Such strong feelings,

2009-03-23T12:40:00.006+08:00

Have you ever felt you were the only one is this world with everyone's back turned away? When everything else you thought was perfect before comes crashing down like pieces of glass so sharp it stabs you right in your heart? You once thought your friends would be there with you to face everything but as time passes, one by one they leave and in the end if you're lucky there'd still be one or two. If not, its you alone facing the world. I want to know who'd be with me through thick and thin, do you?

One day you'll change your mind,

2009-03-22T17:04:00.006+08:00

I went to develop all my photos today that was taken by the fisheye, holga 135BC! I want to order a fujifilm instax but I'm so fickle minded over such stuff. Instax 200? Instax mini 7s? Instax mini 25? Just like my holga I've finally made up my mind. I will get the Multicolor Holga GCFN with an addon fisheye lens. I think I gave the online person hell a lot of hassle! I feel so bad! I can't wait till 6.30pm before I can collect the photos!Friends come and go, some pull you up and some pull you down. Remember once we had so many memories together and yet the next second we realised everything was just an illusion? I'm glad everything is back to normal all the quarrells are now put behind us. I'm sorry I've made my mistake too. I take back all the negative things I've said about you before. I'll be there for you like the past Song yingting, love you yeah yeah yeah.

It's been so long,

2009-03-21T22:12:00.005+08:00

Finally met up with Joyce on Thursday afternoon. You know I love you right, you should know. We went to Town, then Clarke Quay, then Vivo City and then Pasir Ris. She spent $150+ at Topshop while I spent none! I'm on my way to saving up for more and more money! I'm very happy. Crashed over at Suzanne's place instead of going to cousin's house because it was already 11pm at night. The next thing I knew in the morning I was having a high fever! But I was glad I was able to have her look after me! Hehehehe and we had heart2heart talk for hours. Not going to post unglam pictures up of me sick in bed! Today was my first day starting work and you know what? Vanessa and I were suppose to distribute flyers door to door Yishun but we couldn't find the blocks and in the end due to her nagging of hot weather we gave up took a cab back to Bishan for lunch at KFC and then library to search for new jobs. The next moment, rain was pouring down so heavily. Lightning and thunder were all where to be seen and heard. Sigh my money is decreasing R.A.P.I.D.L.Y Please help me!

I feel so empty, so empty

2009-03-17T22:32:00.013+08:00

Today was supposed to be spent at East Coast and Clarke Quay. But instead we were walking on the highway like 3 year olds who lost their parents. It's all the bus 401 and the bus 196's bus driver fault okay. Bus 401 does not operate on weekdays and they did not put any sign until we went to the information centre. That made Hadassha and I sat down waiting for a ridiculous 20 mins. So Bus 196 also goes there, but the Bus driver told us it was the 12th stop which we had to get down and not the 5th. Actually to head to East Coast we had to cross the highway which was totally impossible! We met Cody and we took a cab to Bedok Interchange and a bus to Clarke Quay to meet Glen and Shane. But the bus ride took an hour and we saw Bugis so we alighted as we did not know how long more it would actually take to reach Clarke Quay. Had dinner at food court with them and back to Bishan at 7.30pm. Had to rush to tuition at 8pm for make up class and so coincidentally I met Huiping! We has a Chemistry lesson at 8pm too! I tell you, I seriously embarassed myself infront of so many people and Huiping laughed over my misfortune. Why am I so unlucky today? After class, headed home with Huiping.

A bunch of sunshines,

2009-03-17T08:41:00.007+08:00

JOYCE/ says: 11.38pm
I love you more than anything so please cheer!
If your heart is dying, mine is too when I see you this upset. (b'cos my pm was my heart i dying)

AIRE-CL says: 11.39pm
I love you 2 heheh. I make your heart live again kkkkkkk!

Rachel says: 11.39pm
Thanks i love you two. More than anything!
You both are my everything you know? Teehee. (L)

[b]Z[/b] : ｪzｦ . says: 9.34am
Anything, sms me alright, i'll be there for you .

[b]Z[/b] : ｪzｦ . says: 9.34am
(:

Rachel says: 9.34am
Thanks love (L)

Everything happens for a reason,

2009-03-16T23:34:00.005+08:00

Spent the whole Saturday afternoon with Vanessa at Waterloo St. We walked the whole lane just to find where the flea was held! We were about to give up until we took a cab and the uncle spot it! After that, we walked to bugis street and out again to Waterloo St. Then, to Burlington Square to buy films for the cameras, and then to food court for lunch. We spent most of the time roaming on the streets taking so many weird and funny photos! Cab back to Junction 8, and then headed home. 6pm met Elaine and Claire under block and Daddy drove us to Suntec City as we wanted to catch Dragon Ball while he, mummy and my brother went for the IT fair. It is a recommended show! Very interesting! Elaine bought a Vaio laptop you know. I want I want! 10pm trained to Woodlands Claire and I crashed at Elaine's place. We were conferencing with Glenn, Brandon, Nicholas till it was 3am in the morning. They came over to Woodlands and I swear the whole place was in chaos. All the girls slept throughout the whole of Sunday afternoon while the guys psp-ed the whole time. Causeway point Swensons for dinner and over to Clarke Quay to spend the night. Rushed back to school today and I'm dead beat. Going to replenish my sleep tomorrow morning before I head to East Coast in the afternoon!

Where's the happiness we said about?

2009-03-13T22:59:00.006+08:00

Finally it's the last day of school for term 1 and it's time for a break! Imagine how school days can drain out all your energy. It's time for staying out till the wee hours of morning, replenishing my sleep, and meeting up with all the girls again! My eyebags are getting heavier and heavier each day. Out to meet Vanessa at 6pm. We headed for Kbox at Cineleisure. Had their buffet there and total each of us had to pay $32 for 3 hours. It's worth the money I tell you. Heart2heart talks, singing like crazy people. I have been enjoying myself, laughing till my heart's content ever since all these outings with her. We were eating and singing at the same time, and we laughed at each other whenever we were out of tune! Hahahaha! We jumped around while singing making a mess out the place. Headed home at 10pm. I can't wait for tomorrow with her again! Do you know something? I realised that sometimes when you think you've found your true bestfriend you're wrong. The closest people whom you can really count as your best friends are those who'd share with you everything from the way they feel to telling you all their little secrets. Some are just really good friends. There's a difference. Bestfriends are the people you can always rely on through your toughest and lowest point in life. You'd never know who they are until you face obstacles with them. It can be as simple as just them accompanying you whenever they are free or when you're down. After meeting so many people in 2008 and 2009 I've realised who are the ones I can count on forever. Cheryl, Claire, Tiff, Vanessa, Zining, Joyce, Genevieve, Sylvia, Suzanne, Chinyee.

Hearts all over the world tonight,

2009-03-12T22:58:00.005+08:00

Haji Lane, Bugis Junction, Junction 8 with Vanessa today. I can't wait for tomorrow night's outing, and saturday's outing again you know. Photos taken today aren't developed yet, will develop them tomorrow if possible!

Never judge a person by her looks,

2009-03-10T22:37:00.005+08:00

Every time you think you've found a friend you could tell all secrets to, have gossips and long talks it seems as if you've got the world's greatest gift. Yet when you realise that that particular person actually gossips and backstabs you right on your back, you'd understand how I actually felt practically this whole afternoon. I'm at my worst. Tell me how much worser can it get? The two kinds of people in the world are those that bring you up, and those that pull you down. I used to think that you were different from the rest, that you'd always bring me up when I'm at the lowest point of my life. You added laughter and joy to at least part of my life. Life now seems like there's no one else left for me to share every little single joy and sadness. Even if we weren't that close in the past, but at least I still reserve a space for you in my heart. I am really interested to know what you actually said about me behind my back. I hate it when there are so many things left unanswered. I want to know why. I want to know why you act as if nothing happened after that. Why? I want to know why! Do you even know who you are?

Lost yet found,

2009-03-09T18:32:00.005+08:00

Please help me start saving for all of these!

Topshop Inspired Boots $159 (I WANT THIS SO BADLY)

Holga 135 add-on Fisheye lens $68 (Ordered)

Holga add-on Multicolor flash $30 (Should I?)

Holga 135 BC $75 (Ordered)

Fisheye 2 $110

Ready to let go,

2009-03-05T19:49:00.007+08:00

Out with Vanessa to Marina Square and Raffles City Shopping Centre today. I finally got the denim high waist shorts from Topshop! And I saw the boots from there which costs $159! Someone help! Daddy is considering whether he'd sponsor me so meanwhile ... (cross fingers!) Nevertheless, it has always been wonderful going out with her today. Love you very much banana breastie!

P/S: I miss Lim Zining and Genevieve Soon! Meet up soon huns.

So many lies,

2009-02-28T23:28:00.016+08:00

Spent the afternoon at Clarke Quay with Vanessa. I tell you, she's the world's best person to be with when you've got so much pain in your heart it can kill you. Laughter pills from her saved the day. We took a ride along the Singapore River for $15! How worth it was it! Lunch at Renn Thai. Food there was absolutely mouth watering! Anyway, I've finally been able to upload all the photos! Enjoy!

Without you,

2009-02-26T19:08:00.005+08:00

To sum up everything I'm feeling right now.

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause something’s changed
You’ve been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it thenBut it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought
I'd say I’m fine
Without you

Called you up cause’ it’s been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And it’s taken its toll on me
It’s safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought
I'd say I’m fine
Without you

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And it’s taken its toll on me
It’s safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say
I’m fine,
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I just wanna be alone tonight,
I just wanna take a little breather.